When we see Maya sobbing on the floor, repeating the phrase "I don't want to lose", this isn't the 30-something-year-old talking. This is the 3, 10, 15 year old asking for help. This is the younger Maya who was constantly neglected and abused pleading to be loved, cared for, listened to and hugged. It isn't just about the demotion but about losing herself like she lost the child she once was. Maya equates losing with death. With abandonment, with no reason to continue. It's already been established that Maya does not want to die. She just doesn't want to lose. But she does not see a way out of that cycle yet. Maya grew up not knowing what it meant to have loving arms hold her when she was sad or in pain because love was only a reward for her wins. And then she fell in love with Carina and Carina loved her back and showed her what it means to be held, to be loved unconditionally and now her biggest fear is losing Carina.
In the end, we saw Maya acknowledge that she loves & misses carina and that she wants to speak to her but ultimately, made the decision to wait because she needs to love herself before she can truly love anyone else.
This episode was a reminder to everyone who is hard on themselves to learn to be kinder and remember the younger versions of ourselves that deserved better. It can be so healing to watch your comfort character go through the process of healing. Yeah, it's messy and raw and painful but it's so real and Danielle and Tracie did an excellent job of portraying this.
Maya means the world to me because of what she stands for and who she represents (I see so much of myself in her and have never loved a character like I love Maya). It's so rare to see in-depth, raw, trauma-healing journeys these days. I am beyond grateful for her and this storyline, however heartbreaking it may be.
Leah Gonzalez and Paula Hunziker deserve all the awards for writing and directing this.
In the end, we saw Maya acknowledge that she loves & misses carina and that she wants to speak to her but ultimately, made the decision to wait because she needs to love herself before she can truly love anyone else.
This episode was a reminder to everyone who is hard on themselves to learn to be kinder and remember the younger versions of ourselves that deserved better. It can be so healing to watch your comfort character go through the process of healing. Yeah, it's messy and raw and painful but it's so real and Danielle and Tracie did an excellent job of portraying this.
Maya means the world to me because of what she stands for and who she represents (I see so much of myself in her and have never loved a character like I love Maya). It's so rare to see in-depth, raw, trauma-healing journeys these days. I am beyond grateful for her and this storyline, however heartbreaking it may be.
Leah Gonzalez and Paula Hunziker deserve all the awards for writing and directing this.
